杨丞琳-暧昧
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃连拥抱
都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑眼前的人
是不是同一个
真实的你
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
Once again I don't remember what happen in school. Maybe I'll slowly lose all my memories. =x I was stoning throughout ss lessons. thinkin....of somthing. This few days bs really crazy. Keep bullying the 3 of us. ss suffered the most. lol. ke lian mama. =x Went out with sam they all to have lunch at tm. Hs was kinda left out but I couldn't do anything. Really got nothing to talk to her about. sigh. Luckily we rushed back to school in time. phew~!
Saw all the presentation made by other classes. I thought ours is gonna be so paiseh. But it turn out great. =x Hate that offense thingy. Where got too cute. Think it's act cute ba. =x But most of the offense are very funny. The photos too. haha. Just before I got up the stage, I was feeling kinda nervous. lol. Dunno how many years never go on stage. Mf was commenting about chua's handshake not firm enough not like JJ(erhem). edison's handshake the best! =x Our class purposely sang the school song the loudest. So funny. After that, they were playin with the erm.... that thing la. Making so much noise until mr koh came. lol. There was buffet after that. So many people chiong sia. So kiasu. =x Didn't eat much. Me and jx sat behind sathya, lb n emm. They were so funny doing retarded things. =x There was a performance by jon that group of friends. argh~! Keli is sooooo sexy. =x Soo very shuai. =x The other performances weren't that entertaining.
Played captain's ball for pe. The whole class participated. My group only got 3 gals. But luckily got ty that group guys. Spent half of my energy laughin. =x So many ppl fell down. Some tripped over others. lol. All kind of ways of falling down. =x Yi fan's head even tore mario's shorts. lol. Too many funny things happen. Can't rmb anything already. =x Still rmb one more but then better don't say. hahaha. mama know can le. =x jx had fever today. ke lian wor. hope she gets well soon.
Was at home the whole day watchin 'tian guo de jia yi'. Argh~! Wasted so much tears. >.< Only watched 6 episodes I already cry like siao liao. =x But den the show very nice. But I dun like the main actress together with the main actor. =x After watching, feel that ming dao more n more shuai. lol. After today, it's gonna be the beginning of my nightmare. O levels. sigh.
23 sep
Finally prelims over. Didn't study for the last paper. haha. =x Had roti prata at 201. Went to downtown east to bowl. 1st time my mum wanted me to bring the hp. But I dun wan. lol. We reached there early. So we played photo hunt while waitin for chee n steven. So fun. =x Chee reached 1st. Can't imagine he walked from home. Seriously think he's sick. =x He walked through the construction site. His feet went into the clay. haha. Then when we played 2 games. Chee bowl damn funny. =x Js came later. Went for lunch after that. Quite shocked that chee will wait for everyone to start eatin before he eats. lol. Only me, ss, js n chee had lunch. Js keep bittin the straw. Chee said js's gonna eat it. haha. After that went to tm with ss. Saw a tanned pig. argh~! Gonna go crazy again. Do you noe how cute it is?!!!!!!!!!!! =x nvm. Skip this part. Went to the basement. Saw so many food stalls. argh~! =x Got takopachi! argh~! =x Skip this part too. =x Wanted to use the com one but he usin the study room. Until 12 summore. sheesh~!
today
Went out with sam. Was supposed to go to escape. But huiting cannot go so ss also dun wanna go. Left me n sam. Watched the myth. Quite a nice movie. Cuz got chio bu. =x The korean actress really chio. Summore hair so long. So xian mu. =x Everytime go out with her I sure eat alot one. haha. Saw alot of things again. Wanna buy all. But muz 'REN' . =x Had dinner at yoshinoya. 1st time eating there. Not bad la. Sam lost her hp. sigh.
Juz as we were walkin back. This woman came to us. Tellin us how pathetic she was. She lost her wallet blah blah. Ask us for money so that she could take bus home. I took pity on her. So I gave her $1. It's alot to me. But she seemed disappointed that I only gave $1. Sam suspect that she's a con woman. So we followed her. Saw her askin money from another 2 teen gals. They din give I think. Continued followin her. Guess what, saw her walking off with another man. I was CONNED. I am so gullible. argh~! Feel so stupid. sigh. =x
Change skin again. Not a happy one though. Feeling terribly moody for abt 3 hrs already. Need help. =x
-not meant to be-
I wouldn't be blogging now if ss didn't remind me I didn't blog for days. hehe. I even asked her I very long nv blog le meh. lol. Feel so stupid. lol. Did nth today. Was supposed to go out but change it to sat. Cuz I wanted to slp today. hahaha. So pig of me. =x Today so suay. Didn't have to go to sch and it's supposed to be a happy thing. But den he too was on leave. wth. Damn suay lor. Of all days today. =x I'm mean. So I couldn't really do anything but just locked myself in the room. Luckily ss called to chat. hehe. Save me for 2 hrs. lol. After that, I felt hungry. haha. Went to eat noodles. Watch tv. I felt asleep while watching. lol. Just woke up not long. Not gonna eat dinner. haha. Still feel full. =x Such a boring day. But the weather was extremely nice. hehe. Make me feel like sleeping nia. argh~! Feel so pig.
-I'm a pig pig girl, in a pig pig world- (lol)
Lemme see if I can recall everything that happen today. It's gonna be another long entry. haha. Had e math test n chi test today. Screwed both totally. Giving myself too much stress ba. Gonna lose to chee. sigh. I drop my pen twice, almost drop my ruler. All the bad omen. =x sigh. Dun wanna talk abt unhappy things anymore.
Well, went straight home. Pom pom then went out. wahahhaha. =x Went to S11 to meet up with ss. I waited like a retard there for almost 30 min. It's always like tt. Forever waiting for people. And almost all my friends like to be late. sigh. So we ate lunch there. Shop at tm for awhile and went to jurong point. hehe. We just keep on chatting. Went totally crazy. That's me. But only can go crazy with some people only. haha. Was shoppin for clothes. It was like all the stress was gone. Half of the journey, we were like laughin at crazy people.
The funny part was when we went into courts. We were lookin at all the electrical appliances. She was playin with the bread toaster. Then she played with the hi-fi. Keep openin and closing. lol. The best part is still the refirigerator. hahahhaha. =x We were opening every one of them. There's this one where it say auto ice maker. We were like lookin at it. Like to see how it works. Then we were like tryin to take the tray out. But cannot seem to get it out. So we gave up. Went to another one. Found out how it works. Went back to that one again. wahahhaha. We were still tryin very hard. Still to no avail. lol. Then when we were about to walk away, saw this sales girl lookin at us. ss was so paiseh. haha.
We also went to this gift shop. We were readin all the bookmarks which wrote abt all the horoscopes. Mostly correct. It says I'm really short-tempered. lol. I'm also very impatient.(this one is I say one) And it also says my love comes and goes easily. lol. I'm a very cheerful person. (although I think I have quite a sad life) haha. And love at first sight is libra. haha. remind of 1 person. hehe. wanna know who come ask me. hahha. But better don't ask. haha. You won't like the answer. haha. =x
I bought a shirt and a skirt/shorts. Broke again. haha. But really feel so relax. Reached home around 9.30. I went out for like 8 hrs. That's crazy. Then I was rushing for the bus. My pants keep dropping. =x So paiseh. Summore have to hold on to it. lol. Talk so much to ss today. Feeling so tired. Gonna peng soon.
Finally finish chem. hooray~! sigh. Chattin with chee. Just realised haven memorise QA yet. sigh. Didn't take afternoon nap today. Feel so tired. Later have to chiong a math liao. Dunno how I'm gonna do that. Going crazy soon.
-I realised in reality... you are like a stranger to me-
Wanted to study but ended up doin my blog. argh~! I'm so dead. But so nice. Finally got my WHITE skin. hehe. Can't find one that I like so i might as well do it myself. lol. There's a mistake in it. See if you can find it. Anyway, I also lazy to change. =x So yeap... off to study. tata~
Finally get to use the com. Been mugging. And sleeping. haha. Got 1 lollipop today. hehe. Some pig put it on my table. =x 3 subjects gone. Still got so many left. I wanna to shop!!! =x Suddenly got that strong urge to go shopping. haha. But got no money. sigh. But I'm saving. If I dun eat for this whole week, den I'll have 20bucks liao. hehe. Alright, gonna go study again. lalala~
Dunno what's gotten into me.
Feel so moody.
-sorry-
This week just passed so fast. Tml's the starting of my prelim already. sigh. Didn't study much throughout the hols. But I did finish studyin geog today. haha. To me, its a great achievement cuz I haven been able to finish studyin any subject. Think the others are all well-prepared. Those calls that I received. All ask me abt ss(social studies, not sishan). =x I was like... wth. Really dunno what to say.
Was supposed to come online earlier but I told my dad the speaker spoil. So he tried to fix it. He din believe it was spoiled ok. Den he spent ard 10-15min doin dunno what. He end up sayin the speaker is spoiled. wth. Got prob leh. Den I said " there... told u it's spoiled." Guess what he said.... "no.. it's not tt spoil but blah blah." Cannot stand it sia. =x Finally he change speaker. And it worked. HAHA. He got nth to say liao. =x I'm so mean.
Ate 1 lollipop today. keke. =x It wasn't for me though. haha. Was studyin until I felt so sleepy. So I saw the lollipops I bought yesterday. Cuz I owe him the lollipops for erm... dunno how many days le. haha. So yeap... to prevent myself from falling asleep, I ate 1. haha. =x
Woke up today. Finally found my energy back. And of coz the mood to study. But it lasted only for a few hours. And there I was, on the sofa, watching tv. lol. Even though there wasn't any nice shows but I rather watch tv. =x Was blasting off evanescence again. Suddenly someone call me. I pick up the phone, it didn't sound familiar. =x Guess what, it's sam. haha. Don't angry hor. =x After I hung up the phone, Jen called. Den jx called.... den hs msg me. haiyo. So many ppl find me. Den after that, I called ss. =x
no matter how i wait
i cant go
like a dummy crying
next to you
only gave me pain
without you noticing
are you telling me to leave?
i miss you
i miss you
to the point where i hate myself
i want to cry
i want to kneel down
if only everything didnt happen
searching the memories whr i loved you crazily
those memories haunt me
but i cant hide from this love any longer
i shouldnt do this
but i miss you to death
but i miss you to death
(finally found the translation to the korean song from stairway to heaven) *hehe*
Sigh. Another boring day. Eat, sleep, study has become my daily routine. 1 thing that was diff today was that I msg ss for the whole afternoon until I was so tired. I went to sleep. haha. But when I woke up, didn't feel better, instead I got a very bad headache. sigh. It's killing me. It just comes and goes everyday. Think I'm gonna fall sick again. Of all time, now. sigh. Hope everything will be over soon.
Just now, when I was readin something, came across something that made me really sad. sigh. Hope it isn't true. Maybe it's just my wishful thinkin that you would be there no matter what. But I guess every beginning has its end. sigh.
Lemme count how many times have I sigh. lol. 5 sighs in just 2 short para. omg. I'm turnin into a depressed person. sigh. oops. =x now, tt's 6.Didn't bother to blog yesterday. Partly bcuz I was a lil sick and I couldn't sign in to the blogger. Anyway, revise for chem today. But don't seem to get anything into my head. sigh.
2nd Sep
Well, I can't really rmb what happen on that day. As u know, I have a really really bad memory. or should I say stm. lol. Dun rmb what happen in sch. But I know that's the last day of sch. Also vic was sa jiao-ing to mf. That's quite gross tho. =x Went to the chalet after goin home to take my bath. Me n mf reached there earlier den bs n ss, so we met up with them. That day was rather boring I would say. Didn't know most of the ppl, even though I know their name. Bs did all the bbq-ing. Me n mf did help out. After that, me, mf n sy went for a walk at the beach. It was quite late at that time. Talk about some sensitive issue. lol. Went home at abt 10. Reach home abt 10.30 I think. So tired.
3rd Sep
Also can't rmb what happen that day. haha. Woke up at around 8+. Took my bath. Went out after that. Watch charlie and the choc factory. It's heavenly. lol. I meant the choc factory. lol. It's a really nice movie. And johnny depp is a great actor. Took neoprint after that. Went straight to chalet. Didn't wan the guys to see me in skirt so I purposely walk away from the pool. But still end up seeing them. argh~!Quickly went to the toilet to change into shorts. Den suddenly someone bang the door and shout at me. argh~! so scary. stupid ty. After that, I only rmb sth happen which made me a lil upset. But I was okay later on. Marshmallows!!! somehow, reminded me of chee again. Cuz he love marshmallows too. O ya, kenny came but not in the right state of mind. lol. He was drunk. He was damn funny. Esp what he did to jr n leo. haha. =x It's kinda sick but damn funny. Okay, I'm not normal. =x erm... another thing is when ty n leo were performin along with the song. It was really funny. Went home quite late. Took sam's car home. After that, msg ss until 1 den go to slp.
Today
Woke up 7am in the morning. Went to msia. lol. It was really boring. The only diff thing abt this trip is that my aunt's family is goin with us. Anyway, went to secret recipe. Saw so many types of cheese cakes!!! IT'S CHEESE CAKE,OKAY?! lol. So tempting. *drools* But I can't eat. sigh. Just reach home not long. Finally finish reading the five people you meet in heaven. It's a really nice book. I can't really summarise what's the book abt. Cuz you see, I can't elaborate on things well, as well as explaining things or expressing my feelings. =x But there's a few quotes in that book I really like. lol. Shan't say it. Lazy. lol. Since it's a really long entry already.
Things are getting more complicated than I thought. See too many things and hear too many things. Just feel like shutting myself up. Just wanna have some peace to think abt this thing. Headache. sigh. lost.
feeling lost again. 3 routes to choose.
